Optimism.

Hello everybody,

So i was planning to blog about friendship and some bullcrap like that but i met up with a very old friend today and she dropped some dope knowledge on me. Anyways, other shit that has happened this week... hhmmm. Oh yeah, my failing 2000s. Aahhh gayness, indeed gayness. I was meant to go to a jam as well tommorow(well actually today since im writing this at 12:30 since i cant sleep... gayness) but im dropping out because im not ready for it lol. You see, if this was the HSC i wouldnt get that choice. I feel really tired at the moment so i think that this is going to be very very lazy. So lazy that it's going to be as shit as one of those asian proposals. Well proposal isnt a really good word for it no, what i mean is a Chris Chan beg you to go out with me plea and i think only me and Cassie will understand what i mean >_<..

Like i already said, i met a very very old friend whom i have known for a very long time and lol i dunno if this is a bad thing but the first thing i noticed was that she lost alot of weight. Well not alot but quite a bit since the last time i saw her which was...... fuck i cant remember. Oh well whatever it was really good to see her again, at first i felt a bit nervous and awkward i dont know why actually no thats a lie i do its because her boyfriend was there with her but he was actually really cool about it. She told me to be positive. See, usually if someone said that i wouldnt really listen but since shes like really pretty (You thought i wouldnt mention you didnt you Ben?) i listen. Nah im joking, its because she said she knows people with cancer and shit that makes my disease look like a scratch stay positive and then i realized i was being a very very very silly boy for the past... few... months i think? Yeah somewhere around that. Its true to an extent, we have to look forward or else we will only fall into our fears. Im still a bit of a skeptic about the optimism part though, because i still havent proved to myself i can do what i want. I try and i still fail. lol. But maybe Ben's right and maybe YJ's right, i have to be able to respect what i do. Sigh this is starting to sound really gay so ill just end this blog now. =_=...

Peace out,
The King of Random

Thanks for everything Sue.