Saturday, February 14, 2009

Simple love... has come to an end.

Hey,

Hope everyone is having a better valentines than i am. I broke up with my girl today. But actually... i think its sort of good. A friend of mine told me not to fuck things up and end them on completely shit terms and i really am thankful to her for that. Me and Cindy... we had chemistry. She taught me alot about life, love, how to make love hahahahaha. But yeah on the serious side it was a good experience for me, and a real eye opener. Maybe William was right, maybe i shouldn't have fallen for her but whatever. Whats happened cant be changed right?

I'm at the airport right now, my flight got delayed because SOME fuckers over in Melbourne are on strike. So my flight is now leaving at 1:50 in the morning ==. Aahhh this trip has been good. Even though i don't want to leave it's still been a great trip. All my problems got sweeped away and i'm sort of like a clean slate now =). I'm sure in the future i'm gonna come across alot of shit but the future is unpredictable... never in my dreams did i think someone like her would come into my life. Fuck i still sound so whipped. I guess i sort of am... but whatever, no regrets. I am gonna miss that warm feeling i get when i'm around her though =P.

When i get back, i have a plan. I'm gonna dance till i faint and make it into DK top 8. I'm gonna go to YOUR Australia and steal YOUR jobs. I'm gonna study hard and transfer to Macquarie and get away from all the TB's and Bogans in my uni. I promised her.

Peace,
The King of Random.

Monday, February 9, 2009

。。黄蓓蕾。。你别让我走可以吗。。。?

Hey,

So as most of you know, i have a girlfriend. Some of you may also know that i'm coming back this Sunday. And... that's where the problem is at. It seems like i don't want to leave this place, no, it's not leaving this place it's more leaving her. Argh its hard to explain... i mean if i leave her and i come back in July... what's the point? We wont ever be this good again... and i'm trying so hard to hold onto what i have with her now. Hahahaha its sort of funny and cruel at the same time but alot of things sort of push this problem in front of me. Like today i got an email from my friend and at the bottom he said "ENJOY YOUR LAST WEEEK" Yeah thanks dude i dont want you to remind me for fuck's sake. And my mum... freakin' hell mum you dont need to start packing right now we leave on Saturday.. fuck.

Sigh... i don't even know whether or not this is a problem cause it was inevitable and i thought i had prepared for this but now that its hit me in the face i cant help but think about it. And i feel sad. And the fact that i feel sad means that i'm dissapointing Cindy which makes me even sadder. Hahahaha. Aahhh what to do what to do? When i go back... i wanna keep myself busy. Busy out of my fucking mind that i won't have to think. I cant stop thinking about the future. Damn... i keep seeing what were gonna be like in 5 months time. Its gonna be Sue all over again...

It seems like happiness is a high for me. And like any high, it only lasts a short period. I aint saying i'm sad or whatnot i'm just saying 3 weeks ago.... wow. WOW. Everyday was like a dream for me... and i realized it then and i realize it now too. Fudge, i'm in emo mode =P

I wanna sleep...,
The King of Random.