Howdy everyone,
I haven't posted in over 2 months so i thought i would post since i can't focus on studying haha. This is going to be a loooong ass post so it might get boring. Its the 12th of June 2:05 AM as i write this, for most people you would be sleeping but for me this has become normal. My life hasn't changed that much but when i think about it it has.
Me and my girlfriend, we're still together. We've been through alot of rough times but we still managed to stay together in the end. I'm going to see her in 18 days and boy i can't wait. My life sometimes seems to revolve around her though and when i think about it it sort of does. Maybe i give too much of myself up to her haha i mean i stay up till 2 AM sometimes 4 AM just for her cause of her work. Alot of issues are coming at us and in a way i sometimes feel as if we're both kids lost in a busy, scary city. We adapt fast like most but alot of shit still hits us hard. Not so much me as i'm being exposed to the filth of this world. I just mean the many pathetic acts people seem to commit these days. I don't want to live in this world at times but i don't really have a choice now do i? In particular i keep finding myself being faced with that issue of... monogamy. Her too since alot of her co-workers are screwing more than 1 person, sometimes even more than 1 person at the same time which is... filthy. And i HATE it when people say "Oh don't be surprised, It's normal(正常)" i swear to God i fucking hate that so much because even if that shit is normal, at least pretend to be shocked and pretend that it isn't normal. And a PARTICULAR person (i think you know who you if you were to read this although you wont since you don't know i have a blog) says the funniest shit, she says it's normal when its happening to someone i know and when it happens to me "oh... are you alright?" i appreciate your concern but goddamn choose a side, don't sit on the fucking fence.
Anyways, i've developed a particular hatred for middle-aged men. Businessmen to be exact and i find that my views are a bit.... extreme. No. Not a bit. REALLY extreme. Hahahahahaha it makes me laugh as i'm writing this because as i read what i've written i realize the insanity of all of it. Basically, all middle aged businessmen are perverted and need to be either killed if they don't have any children or castrated if they do because they all cheat. Pathetic. I guess thats what happens when your girlfriend works at hooters though, you get a shitload of douchebags. I feel a bit sad though because i know i have on numerous occasions pissed Cindy off for making certain comments about her friends because of their status but i have no regrets, what i say is what i feel from the heart. Me and one of her friend's really are similar however i don't know if he's brought that up.
As for my bboying, i feel as if i'm getting better day by day well not so much now but very recently. I've been winning battles and damn it feels good.. but i have still yet to win a jam. I'm sort of beginning to understand my dance though because i guess i'm at that period now when i really start to get into the scene. I'm mostly training power now because its the missing link for me but i am so retarded when it comes to power. Its like Marcus getting laid. Yeah...
Uni is just uni there aint really nothing special about it oh wait no i go to UWS yeah apart from the Nazis and shit its a pretty good uni. I love the ignorance of everyone though and in particular these 4 kids from Penrith who seem to think they are cultured. I have a bit of a story to share about one of the kids i call him the Aryan because he has the true values of an Aryan and his name is German too. Anyways i was telling one of my tutor's that my girlfriend was in China and how technology helped us maintain our relationship and then he heard and as i was going home he goes like "So, is your girlfriend mando or kanto?" And i thought well okay this guy is white so i guess he doesn't know that much and i told him my girlfriend could speak mando and wen zhou hua and then, THEN he says the funniest thing i have heard in ages: "Oh yeah? I got a friend who's Chinese." WWWOOOOWWW YOU MUST BE SPECIAL OR SOME SHIT YOU HAVE A FRIEND WHO'S CHINESE!?!?!? OH MY GOD I AM FUCKING SURPRISED.. Sarcasm. Seriously and i thought we lived in a fucking multi-cultural country. Goddammit....
Cheers,
The King of Random.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Heavy.
Hey,
It's been a long time but i'm really stressed out right now so i can't think of any other way. I'm losing it, my world seems to be collapsing right before my eyes. I really hate myself sometimes, purely because of my age. It's cause of something she said to me today but it's making me more depressed. I don't know why but it's becoming more and more... important to me. I always find myself faced with this problem just when I think I've dealt with it. Damn this is gonna sound extremely faggy and it's gonna go against everything i believe in but... the girl i love can never feel the same about me. Cause of age. And I've put myself in her shoes and i think I would do the same as her. I mean c'mon, the guy your dating is 5 years younger than you. You should be ashamed of yourself. No, you shouldn't cause that shit doesn't matter. It's legal so what's the problem with it? Fuck, we're better than most couples who have secret motives, who are doing shit behind each other's backs, who use each other for personal gain. Fuck everyone who thinks it's wrong, fuck social morals, fuck age.
till next time,
The King of Random.
It's been a long time but i'm really stressed out right now so i can't think of any other way. I'm losing it, my world seems to be collapsing right before my eyes. I really hate myself sometimes, purely because of my age. It's cause of something she said to me today but it's making me more depressed. I don't know why but it's becoming more and more... important to me. I always find myself faced with this problem just when I think I've dealt with it. Damn this is gonna sound extremely faggy and it's gonna go against everything i believe in but... the girl i love can never feel the same about me. Cause of age. And I've put myself in her shoes and i think I would do the same as her. I mean c'mon, the guy your dating is 5 years younger than you. You should be ashamed of yourself. No, you shouldn't cause that shit doesn't matter. It's legal so what's the problem with it? Fuck, we're better than most couples who have secret motives, who are doing shit behind each other's backs, who use each other for personal gain. Fuck everyone who thinks it's wrong, fuck social morals, fuck age.
till next time,
The King of Random.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Dancing dancing dancing.
Hey!!!
I just had a great night dancing. Hahahaha i thought this post would be serious but... apparently not. First off i would like to say that Synergy was an awesome event. My abilities as an dancer have increased greatly because of this single event. I cant describe it, i was so pumped, i jumped into every cypher which makes me pretty happy actually cause i'm tired now and it feels great to know you danced as hard as you could. I was on fire for some reason, well i know the reason. I think if i say this, a certain someone is gonna be angry at me. 小虎。。。谢谢。When i dance now, i imagine my opponent is you and when i do, baby i go into a fuckin' frenzy. I wanna fuckin' smoke you to bits and when this is translated onto the dancefloor i get NASTY. My confidence and execution are increased tenfold. I feel as if i'm on top of the world. And i guess its just natural to thank you for that.
So since were on the topic of dancing and a certain dick head, i wanna talk about two things in this blog. The first is 'Little Tiger' since i'm already in the process of giving him shit >=). It seems lately that whenever i see certain people... i get... hostile. I really want to hit them among other things and i think the reason that i act like this is because they remind me of 'Little Tiger' or perhaps the actions of 'Little Tiger'... And i won't EVER forget what you did to that poor girl. But don't worry, one day you'll get what's coming to you and when you do i hope that i'm there. It will be.... satisfying. I guess the saying that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover is bullshit in my perception of the world and i would argue that its a saying only very few practice. I do judge many by their looks and the most common example of this is when i determine your identity just by looking at your shoes. Maybe that's because i'm a bboy =P
Speaking of bboy... i think its hard to stop. Its such an integral part of my life hahaha and i think i may have tried quitting but it never seems to stick. I always fall back into it one way or another. But hey, i don't mind. It can only get better from here. I'm starting to really understand it now, and i'm honing my skills. Aahhh... today has been quite a good night. Oh and by the way some random drunk guy called us a bunch of "fucking gooks" who wouldn't "stand up to fight". He was white. We laughed. Hard.
Peace!
The King of Random.
OH MY GOD 3 MONTHS BABY~~!!!!!!!!!
I just had a great night dancing. Hahahaha i thought this post would be serious but... apparently not. First off i would like to say that Synergy was an awesome event. My abilities as an dancer have increased greatly because of this single event. I cant describe it, i was so pumped, i jumped into every cypher which makes me pretty happy actually cause i'm tired now and it feels great to know you danced as hard as you could. I was on fire for some reason, well i know the reason. I think if i say this, a certain someone is gonna be angry at me. 小虎。。。谢谢。When i dance now, i imagine my opponent is you and when i do, baby i go into a fuckin' frenzy. I wanna fuckin' smoke you to bits and when this is translated onto the dancefloor i get NASTY. My confidence and execution are increased tenfold. I feel as if i'm on top of the world. And i guess its just natural to thank you for that.
So since were on the topic of dancing and a certain dick head, i wanna talk about two things in this blog. The first is 'Little Tiger' since i'm already in the process of giving him shit >=). It seems lately that whenever i see certain people... i get... hostile. I really want to hit them among other things and i think the reason that i act like this is because they remind me of 'Little Tiger' or perhaps the actions of 'Little Tiger'... And i won't EVER forget what you did to that poor girl. But don't worry, one day you'll get what's coming to you and when you do i hope that i'm there. It will be.... satisfying. I guess the saying that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover is bullshit in my perception of the world and i would argue that its a saying only very few practice. I do judge many by their looks and the most common example of this is when i determine your identity just by looking at your shoes. Maybe that's because i'm a bboy =P
Speaking of bboy... i think its hard to stop. Its such an integral part of my life hahaha and i think i may have tried quitting but it never seems to stick. I always fall back into it one way or another. But hey, i don't mind. It can only get better from here. I'm starting to really understand it now, and i'm honing my skills. Aahhh... today has been quite a good night. Oh and by the way some random drunk guy called us a bunch of "fucking gooks" who wouldn't "stand up to fight". He was white. We laughed. Hard.
Peace!
The King of Random.
OH MY GOD 3 MONTHS BABY~~!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Penis Tea Drink.
Hey,
This was the post i INTENDED to write before the super awkward conversation between my father and me happened. Uni has started and well... all of you are feeling the full effect of that. I'm back with Cindy cause she's that awesome haha. Most of you probably knew that though. Anyways this issue which i haven't really been faced with has sort of surfaced again and now that i think about it, humans are so fucked. Like seriously fucked. The issue is cheating. It seems so.......................... common. And because of how frequent it is it sort of makes me dissapointed in the human race. I guess you could link it to greed cause greed is usually one of the reasons we do it. Aahhh fucked up... seriously I dont understand why people do it. I mean of course if in a relationship both of you are good and then randomly, one of you cheats. What the fuck. That is so unfair and selfish == but it's like.. normal. I think it would be considered as normal in today's society. Huh. How very fucked up.
Sorry this post is so serious. Its just its been on my mind for a whole week now and i really am lost when i try to explain it. I hope i never do that shit. Never ever. This post is being influenced by a small asian. A small asian who happens to owe me 50 bucks? Wednesday? Have my money bitch? Hahaha anyways, she was telling me about this argument her and her boyfriend had, or should i say have every week, about freedom within a relationship. I know i've touched on this subject before but it was more specific what she said. She asked if it was okay if your partner went to the movies one on one with one of their friends who happened to be the opposite sex. So for example if i went with a girl to watch a movie. But she was my good friend. Would that be okay? I told her no but i think if you were to ask me this before i met Cindy i probably would have said yes :S. The male psyche is indeed very very strange...
And here we go with the randomness. Most of you who read this live in Australia but for those who don't we have this chain franchise here called Easyway and it sells bubble tea drinks. If you don't know what those are well then you fucking suck. Nah i'm kidding. Its like zhen zhu nai cha only theres all these other ones like fruit green tea and shit. Anyways i noticed that... only asians work there. And i mean if there was a requirement that you needed to speak certain languages well then yeah thats okay but the asians are pretty.... diverse. Like there are filos and shit working there but NO WHITE people. Its pretty funny i guess cause its the asian way of getting back at the whiteys hahahaha. Well thats all i can really think about writing. Sorry!
Have my money ready by Wednesday BEOTCH,
The King of Random.
This was the post i INTENDED to write before the super awkward conversation between my father and me happened. Uni has started and well... all of you are feeling the full effect of that. I'm back with Cindy cause she's that awesome haha. Most of you probably knew that though. Anyways this issue which i haven't really been faced with has sort of surfaced again and now that i think about it, humans are so fucked. Like seriously fucked. The issue is cheating. It seems so.......................... common. And because of how frequent it is it sort of makes me dissapointed in the human race. I guess you could link it to greed cause greed is usually one of the reasons we do it. Aahhh fucked up... seriously I dont understand why people do it. I mean of course if in a relationship both of you are good and then randomly, one of you cheats. What the fuck. That is so unfair and selfish == but it's like.. normal. I think it would be considered as normal in today's society. Huh. How very fucked up.
Sorry this post is so serious. Its just its been on my mind for a whole week now and i really am lost when i try to explain it. I hope i never do that shit. Never ever. This post is being influenced by a small asian. A small asian who happens to owe me 50 bucks? Wednesday? Have my money bitch? Hahaha anyways, she was telling me about this argument her and her boyfriend had, or should i say have every week, about freedom within a relationship. I know i've touched on this subject before but it was more specific what she said. She asked if it was okay if your partner went to the movies one on one with one of their friends who happened to be the opposite sex. So for example if i went with a girl to watch a movie. But she was my good friend. Would that be okay? I told her no but i think if you were to ask me this before i met Cindy i probably would have said yes :S. The male psyche is indeed very very strange...
And here we go with the randomness. Most of you who read this live in Australia but for those who don't we have this chain franchise here called Easyway and it sells bubble tea drinks. If you don't know what those are well then you fucking suck. Nah i'm kidding. Its like zhen zhu nai cha only theres all these other ones like fruit green tea and shit. Anyways i noticed that... only asians work there. And i mean if there was a requirement that you needed to speak certain languages well then yeah thats okay but the asians are pretty.... diverse. Like there are filos and shit working there but NO WHITE people. Its pretty funny i guess cause its the asian way of getting back at the whiteys hahahaha. Well thats all i can really think about writing. Sorry!
Have my money ready by Wednesday BEOTCH,
The King of Random.
Friday, March 20, 2009
A bad return.
...
While i was hoping to start this blog again with a good post it seems that God has other intentions for me. Something just happened which really pissed me off and i cant seem to figure out why. My Father had a talk with me about relationships. So okay, firstly, its awkward as fuck. But secondly, i feel as though he thinks i'm fucking stupid. The shit that was coming out of his mouth was so... retarded. It was common fucking knowledge. No, it was BEYOND common knowledge. Like goddamn dude, do you think i'm a retard? Fuck. Fucked my whole day up. And this post too. Fuck i cant do anything right now, i dont know what to do to make myself feel better. I could start arguing with him but whats the point of that? And goddammit WHY is he talking to me now, when i'm 17. See, normal fathers talk to their son when their son is young, like, 14 young. I'm 17 now, you already lost the opportunity man so fuck it. Dont give me the whole father and son talk bullshit. YOU FUCKING LOST THE OPPORTUNITY. FUCK.
Cheers,
The King of Random.
While i was hoping to start this blog again with a good post it seems that God has other intentions for me. Something just happened which really pissed me off and i cant seem to figure out why. My Father had a talk with me about relationships. So okay, firstly, its awkward as fuck. But secondly, i feel as though he thinks i'm fucking stupid. The shit that was coming out of his mouth was so... retarded. It was common fucking knowledge. No, it was BEYOND common knowledge. Like goddamn dude, do you think i'm a retard? Fuck. Fucked my whole day up. And this post too. Fuck i cant do anything right now, i dont know what to do to make myself feel better. I could start arguing with him but whats the point of that? And goddammit WHY is he talking to me now, when i'm 17. See, normal fathers talk to their son when their son is young, like, 14 young. I'm 17 now, you already lost the opportunity man so fuck it. Dont give me the whole father and son talk bullshit. YOU FUCKING LOST THE OPPORTUNITY. FUCK.
Cheers,
The King of Random.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Simple love... has come to an end.
Hey,
Hope everyone is having a better valentines than i am. I broke up with my girl today. But actually... i think its sort of good. A friend of mine told me not to fuck things up and end them on completely shit terms and i really am thankful to her for that. Me and Cindy... we had chemistry. She taught me alot about life, love, how to make love hahahahaha. But yeah on the serious side it was a good experience for me, and a real eye opener. Maybe William was right, maybe i shouldn't have fallen for her but whatever. Whats happened cant be changed right?
I'm at the airport right now, my flight got delayed because SOME fuckers over in Melbourne are on strike. So my flight is now leaving at 1:50 in the morning ==. Aahhh this trip has been good. Even though i don't want to leave it's still been a great trip. All my problems got sweeped away and i'm sort of like a clean slate now =). I'm sure in the future i'm gonna come across alot of shit but the future is unpredictable... never in my dreams did i think someone like her would come into my life. Fuck i still sound so whipped. I guess i sort of am... but whatever, no regrets. I am gonna miss that warm feeling i get when i'm around her though =P.
When i get back, i have a plan. I'm gonna dance till i faint and make it into DK top 8. I'm gonna go to YOUR Australia and steal YOUR jobs. I'm gonna study hard and transfer to Macquarie and get away from all the TB's and Bogans in my uni. I promised her.
Peace,
The King of Random.
Hope everyone is having a better valentines than i am. I broke up with my girl today. But actually... i think its sort of good. A friend of mine told me not to fuck things up and end them on completely shit terms and i really am thankful to her for that. Me and Cindy... we had chemistry. She taught me alot about life, love, how to make love hahahahaha. But yeah on the serious side it was a good experience for me, and a real eye opener. Maybe William was right, maybe i shouldn't have fallen for her but whatever. Whats happened cant be changed right?
I'm at the airport right now, my flight got delayed because SOME fuckers over in Melbourne are on strike. So my flight is now leaving at 1:50 in the morning ==. Aahhh this trip has been good. Even though i don't want to leave it's still been a great trip. All my problems got sweeped away and i'm sort of like a clean slate now =). I'm sure in the future i'm gonna come across alot of shit but the future is unpredictable... never in my dreams did i think someone like her would come into my life. Fuck i still sound so whipped. I guess i sort of am... but whatever, no regrets. I am gonna miss that warm feeling i get when i'm around her though =P.
When i get back, i have a plan. I'm gonna dance till i faint and make it into DK top 8. I'm gonna go to YOUR Australia and steal YOUR jobs. I'm gonna study hard and transfer to Macquarie and get away from all the TB's and Bogans in my uni. I promised her.
Peace,
The King of Random.
Monday, February 9, 2009
。。黄蓓蕾。。你别让我走可以吗。。。？
Hey,
So as most of you know, i have a girlfriend. Some of you may also know that i'm coming back this Sunday. And... that's where the problem is at. It seems like i don't want to leave this place, no, it's not leaving this place it's more leaving her. Argh its hard to explain... i mean if i leave her and i come back in July... what's the point? We wont ever be this good again... and i'm trying so hard to hold onto what i have with her now. Hahahaha its sort of funny and cruel at the same time but alot of things sort of push this problem in front of me. Like today i got an email from my friend and at the bottom he said "ENJOY YOUR LAST WEEEK" Yeah thanks dude i dont want you to remind me for fuck's sake. And my mum... freakin' hell mum you dont need to start packing right now we leave on Saturday.. fuck.
Sigh... i don't even know whether or not this is a problem cause it was inevitable and i thought i had prepared for this but now that its hit me in the face i cant help but think about it. And i feel sad. And the fact that i feel sad means that i'm dissapointing Cindy which makes me even sadder. Hahahaha. Aahhh what to do what to do? When i go back... i wanna keep myself busy. Busy out of my fucking mind that i won't have to think. I cant stop thinking about the future. Damn... i keep seeing what were gonna be like in 5 months time. Its gonna be Sue all over again...
It seems like happiness is a high for me. And like any high, it only lasts a short period. I aint saying i'm sad or whatnot i'm just saying 3 weeks ago.... wow. WOW. Everyday was like a dream for me... and i realized it then and i realize it now too. Fudge, i'm in emo mode =P
I wanna sleep...,
The King of Random.
So as most of you know, i have a girlfriend. Some of you may also know that i'm coming back this Sunday. And... that's where the problem is at. It seems like i don't want to leave this place, no, it's not leaving this place it's more leaving her. Argh its hard to explain... i mean if i leave her and i come back in July... what's the point? We wont ever be this good again... and i'm trying so hard to hold onto what i have with her now. Hahahaha its sort of funny and cruel at the same time but alot of things sort of push this problem in front of me. Like today i got an email from my friend and at the bottom he said "ENJOY YOUR LAST WEEEK" Yeah thanks dude i dont want you to remind me for fuck's sake. And my mum... freakin' hell mum you dont need to start packing right now we leave on Saturday.. fuck.
Sigh... i don't even know whether or not this is a problem cause it was inevitable and i thought i had prepared for this but now that its hit me in the face i cant help but think about it. And i feel sad. And the fact that i feel sad means that i'm dissapointing Cindy which makes me even sadder. Hahahaha. Aahhh what to do what to do? When i go back... i wanna keep myself busy. Busy out of my fucking mind that i won't have to think. I cant stop thinking about the future. Damn... i keep seeing what were gonna be like in 5 months time. Its gonna be Sue all over again...
It seems like happiness is a high for me. And like any high, it only lasts a short period. I aint saying i'm sad or whatnot i'm just saying 3 weeks ago.... wow. WOW. Everyday was like a dream for me... and i realized it then and i realize it now too. Fudge, i'm in emo mode =P
I wanna sleep...,
The King of Random.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
简单爱.. What the fuck happened to it..?
Hello,
Well what can i say? Simple love, what the fuck happened to it? I guess i'm writing this because of some people i know... it doesn't really have anything to do with my own relationship because well... for us it really is simple. And i know why, but that story is for another night. It seems like people in Australia suck with relationships. I don't know whether its just the people i know or if it applies to everyone but things tend to get... complicated. I hear about all this shit that happens and all i can say is "Don't think too much" because it might be harsh but thats what all of y'all are doing. Seriously. Sometimes it isnt though, sometimes we lack communication and we hide the real problems, and sometimes, SOMETIMES, the other party doesnt wanna help. Then it really is fucked up... But yeah, fuck being all serious and shit all the time. Just keep it simple, enjoy the moments you spend together, talk to them if your feeling like shit, fuck them on a regular basis hahaha.
Aaahhhh seems like theres so many problems in the world. Especially with ourselves. What would the point of life be without them right? I've sort of come to the realisation that... nobody can help you with your problems. Well no i guess.. they can sort of help but in the end its up to you. Only you can really solve it. Hard to explain... this time i came back to Shanghai i really did solve everything, i'm a clean slate as of now. Cindy said something to me that at first scared the shit out of me, she said "...I like children's eyes". At first i thought she was a psychopath serial killer but then she explained that whenever she looks into them she sees the simplicity. The innocence i guess you could say. And i looked, and yeah. They are... so perfect. Life seems so simple in a child's eyes. You should try it sometime. I mean staring into their eyes, you'll see the simplicity and serenity. Sort of freaky i guess... but they really live life quite happily. Simple things can make a child so happy, its really funny how we turn into... us.
Peace out,
The King of Random
Well what can i say? Simple love, what the fuck happened to it? I guess i'm writing this because of some people i know... it doesn't really have anything to do with my own relationship because well... for us it really is simple. And i know why, but that story is for another night. It seems like people in Australia suck with relationships. I don't know whether its just the people i know or if it applies to everyone but things tend to get... complicated. I hear about all this shit that happens and all i can say is "Don't think too much" because it might be harsh but thats what all of y'all are doing. Seriously. Sometimes it isnt though, sometimes we lack communication and we hide the real problems, and sometimes, SOMETIMES, the other party doesnt wanna help. Then it really is fucked up... But yeah, fuck being all serious and shit all the time. Just keep it simple, enjoy the moments you spend together, talk to them if your feeling like shit, fuck them on a regular basis hahaha.
Aaahhhh seems like theres so many problems in the world. Especially with ourselves. What would the point of life be without them right? I've sort of come to the realisation that... nobody can help you with your problems. Well no i guess.. they can sort of help but in the end its up to you. Only you can really solve it. Hard to explain... this time i came back to Shanghai i really did solve everything, i'm a clean slate as of now. Cindy said something to me that at first scared the shit out of me, she said "...I like children's eyes". At first i thought she was a psychopath serial killer but then she explained that whenever she looks into them she sees the simplicity. The innocence i guess you could say. And i looked, and yeah. They are... so perfect. Life seems so simple in a child's eyes. You should try it sometime. I mean staring into their eyes, you'll see the simplicity and serenity. Sort of freaky i guess... but they really live life quite happily. Simple things can make a child so happy, its really funny how we turn into... us.
Peace out,
The King of Random
Monday, January 12, 2009
About the last post....
Yeah,
Nevermind the title i just thought it would be a good title. It's 11:32 right now in Shanghai and i am bored out of my mind. I haven't really updated y'all with whats been going on so i guess this is a good opportunity. Shanghai this year and the last, since i came in 2008 but its now 2009, has been really unique. Its been both good and bad, more good than bad. Friendships have been made and rekindled which i'm very pleased with and i've actually dealt with a few personal problems *cough cough jealousy cough cough*.
It seems the new year has been treating me quite well but i'm not gonna keep my hopes very high because i know what will happen if i do. And i KNOW that if i do they're gonna get totally demolished by the 17th of January. Yes that's right everyone from Australia you know what i'm talking about.
I never really mentioned this girl called Lucia but i guess i should... aw fudge this will be a long post. Story time boys and girls. Back in the day, and i mean like 3 to 4 years ago, Shanghai was the shit for me. It was like... Christmas, Chinese New Year and my birthday all in one. The reason it was like this was because there were 2 friends i used to always hang out with. Ice and William. Lucia is very similar to Ice, not in her personality but in the way i view her. And so... Shanghai is becoming epic again. Not epic in the same was as it was before as that is impossible but its... good. Lucia is a very strange person though... she isnt exactly good for me because well, she has my personality. Only she's a she and not a he. Hahaha. After meeting her and hanging out with her i now know why i'm... disliked. She really is taking Ice's place because well... i can't imagine rooting her. Like seriously. She's so... argh i don't know how to explain it. Once you get that close to a person in that way it sort of decimates the sexual factor. But its good i guess, cause well... yeah you know why ;) most of you do at least.
Lamb kebabs. They are epic. EPIC. But not good for you, because you don't really know what the meat is. It could either be expired by like 2 years OR better yet it could be rat. Hahahaha if its rat then that is some good fucking rat =) Oh and there are these weird candy sticks... not really candy though. They're like strawberries but coated in a layer of candy but damn they're good cause its winter. So the candy is like warm but when you bite it the strawberries are like cold. Hard to explain.... Yeah the food here is pretty good. Street food especially. Oh and there is this weird thing about Chinese fast food. Its better than Australian fast food. I mean the big chain restaurants though like Hungry Jacks(Known as Burger King to Leah) and McDonalds. Hhhmm strange.
Speaking of food i wanna talk about Hooters. I don't think i can ever go there again because well i'm dating one of the waitresses but also my friend did something bad there. He almost cheated on his girlfriend with one of the hooters girls. Part of it was my fault because i was encouraging him to do it. See i was like the evil conscience guy. You know like on your shoulder? Only there wasnt a good conscience hahahaha. Sigh... well i guess we'll see what happens next year. I do sort of miss the chicken wings >_< and i sure as hell don't want to go to the one in Parramatta since the girls are probably all on crack which leads to them being annorexic yet having huge melons. And they're.... white. There. I said it. But on the serious side it feels pretty weird because we used to go there all the time and it was sort of our spot and now its like... a forbidden zone. Like the Hungry Jacks in Parramatta.
I think i'm a bit mental sometimes because i seem to have this obsession with poor and rich. First off i can't stand rich people. I seriously do not know why but whenever i go out with them i always think they're thinking badly of me because i don't bring that much when i go out. And yeah about that i think i'm never ever going to get a girlfriend after Cindy ==. Unless i get a job which can pay enough for my own personal wants and a girlfriend. I seem to get along with poor people better but its like God doesn't want me to have poor friends or something ==. Lucia = spoilt and rich, Will = Rich, Dave and Benji = Super fucking rich. Yeah the list goes on and on. I'm becoming such a stingy jew..... Seriously.... but then i hate asking my Mum for money because well thats like... degrading. I don't know how you people do it == but in my family you do NOT want to be in debt to my Mother because once you are she's got the control. Hahaha i just remembered, i sort of pick on rich people. I egg them on and shit, especially Will. So for example if we go to a mall and see a Rolex store i'll tell him to buy me a Rolex because its only 20,000 kuai (5000 AUD) or randomly i'll say "GAAAWWDD SORRY I'M NOT RICH LIKE YOU, GGGAAAAWWWDDD" yeah. Its pretty funny he gets pretty worked up hahaha.
Anyways i can't really think of much else to say so i guess i'll just leave it at this...
Peace out,
The King of Random
Nevermind the title i just thought it would be a good title. It's 11:32 right now in Shanghai and i am bored out of my mind. I haven't really updated y'all with whats been going on so i guess this is a good opportunity. Shanghai this year and the last, since i came in 2008 but its now 2009, has been really unique. Its been both good and bad, more good than bad. Friendships have been made and rekindled which i'm very pleased with and i've actually dealt with a few personal problems *cough cough jealousy cough cough*.
It seems the new year has been treating me quite well but i'm not gonna keep my hopes very high because i know what will happen if i do. And i KNOW that if i do they're gonna get totally demolished by the 17th of January. Yes that's right everyone from Australia you know what i'm talking about.
I never really mentioned this girl called Lucia but i guess i should... aw fudge this will be a long post. Story time boys and girls. Back in the day, and i mean like 3 to 4 years ago, Shanghai was the shit for me. It was like... Christmas, Chinese New Year and my birthday all in one. The reason it was like this was because there were 2 friends i used to always hang out with. Ice and William. Lucia is very similar to Ice, not in her personality but in the way i view her. And so... Shanghai is becoming epic again. Not epic in the same was as it was before as that is impossible but its... good. Lucia is a very strange person though... she isnt exactly good for me because well, she has my personality. Only she's a she and not a he. Hahaha. After meeting her and hanging out with her i now know why i'm... disliked. She really is taking Ice's place because well... i can't imagine rooting her. Like seriously. She's so... argh i don't know how to explain it. Once you get that close to a person in that way it sort of decimates the sexual factor. But its good i guess, cause well... yeah you know why ;) most of you do at least.
Lamb kebabs. They are epic. EPIC. But not good for you, because you don't really know what the meat is. It could either be expired by like 2 years OR better yet it could be rat. Hahahaha if its rat then that is some good fucking rat =) Oh and there are these weird candy sticks... not really candy though. They're like strawberries but coated in a layer of candy but damn they're good cause its winter. So the candy is like warm but when you bite it the strawberries are like cold. Hard to explain.... Yeah the food here is pretty good. Street food especially. Oh and there is this weird thing about Chinese fast food. Its better than Australian fast food. I mean the big chain restaurants though like Hungry Jacks(Known as Burger King to Leah) and McDonalds. Hhhmm strange.
Speaking of food i wanna talk about Hooters. I don't think i can ever go there again because well i'm dating one of the waitresses but also my friend did something bad there. He almost cheated on his girlfriend with one of the hooters girls. Part of it was my fault because i was encouraging him to do it. See i was like the evil conscience guy. You know like on your shoulder? Only there wasnt a good conscience hahahaha. Sigh... well i guess we'll see what happens next year. I do sort of miss the chicken wings >_< and i sure as hell don't want to go to the one in Parramatta since the girls are probably all on crack which leads to them being annorexic yet having huge melons. And they're.... white. There. I said it. But on the serious side it feels pretty weird because we used to go there all the time and it was sort of our spot and now its like... a forbidden zone. Like the Hungry Jacks in Parramatta.
I think i'm a bit mental sometimes because i seem to have this obsession with poor and rich. First off i can't stand rich people. I seriously do not know why but whenever i go out with them i always think they're thinking badly of me because i don't bring that much when i go out. And yeah about that i think i'm never ever going to get a girlfriend after Cindy ==. Unless i get a job which can pay enough for my own personal wants and a girlfriend. I seem to get along with poor people better but its like God doesn't want me to have poor friends or something ==. Lucia = spoilt and rich, Will = Rich, Dave and Benji = Super fucking rich. Yeah the list goes on and on. I'm becoming such a stingy jew..... Seriously.... but then i hate asking my Mum for money because well thats like... degrading. I don't know how you people do it == but in my family you do NOT want to be in debt to my Mother because once you are she's got the control. Hahaha i just remembered, i sort of pick on rich people. I egg them on and shit, especially Will. So for example if we go to a mall and see a Rolex store i'll tell him to buy me a Rolex because its only 20,000 kuai (5000 AUD) or randomly i'll say "GAAAWWDD SORRY I'M NOT RICH LIKE YOU, GGGAAAAWWWDDD" yeah. Its pretty funny he gets pretty worked up hahaha.
Anyways i can't really think of much else to say so i guess i'll just leave it at this...
Peace out,
The King of Random
Monday, December 29, 2008
You fucking midget junkie motherfucker.
To Adam,
Eat a fucking dick. Yes, that's right, eat a dick. I hope you die you fucking little turd. You are a cunt monkey. You are the reason that there is evil in the world. You are the reason for Di Wang's existence. You are the reason that Hitler hated the jews. How? I don't know but its YOUR fault you midget fuck. Please, PLEASE for the sake of the universe put a knife against the wall, have a sniper in position to blow your fucking head off, anally rape youself with a 19 inch dildo, and run towards the knife. Then i hope that you spontaneously combust so that the world can be rid of your gayness.
Sincerely yours,
The King of Random.
Eat a fucking dick. Yes, that's right, eat a dick. I hope you die you fucking little turd. You are a cunt monkey. You are the reason that there is evil in the world. You are the reason for Di Wang's existence. You are the reason that Hitler hated the jews. How? I don't know but its YOUR fault you midget fuck. Please, PLEASE for the sake of the universe put a knife against the wall, have a sniper in position to blow your fucking head off, anally rape youself with a 19 inch dildo, and run towards the knife. Then i hope that you spontaneously combust so that the world can be rid of your gayness.
Sincerely yours,
The King of Random.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
哎，钟晔你讲话呀！！！！
So so so,
How is everyone doing? Good i hope. Sigh... It's Christmas and i'm sick and sad... sort of. This shit happens every year, for real. But the only time it's been this bad was about 3 years back and back then i made a stupid move. I bottled it all up, held it in and let it eat my sanity... well no i'm still sane. I won't make that move again hence the post. Again, jealousy is a bitch.
I'm reading this conversation between my friend and this guy she knows, he doesn't wanna ever see her again because he knows he can't get with her. He's saying he loved her before, but how can you love someone if you don't get any back? What the fuck is that? That's just obsession dude. And again i'm stuck on this topic. I think it exists now though, it's just people like me can't understand it yet, we're still too young. Wow i know alot of people who would counter that, i'd only listen to about 1 though. Oh and by the way i'm no longer going to be The King of Random, i'm going to be 56.70 to highlight how pathetic i am =_=
I'm not sure why it is that i do this but when i'm sad or pissed off, i just don't talk. Its scary =O but it happens. And i make up excuses when people ask whether i'm okay. Pretty fucking sweet method i reckon. But there is some part of me that wants to scream at the person "FUCK YOU CUNT !!!" Ah well, that's just how i deal with these sort of things i guess. How do you? Looks like this is gonna be a hell of a short post.
Have a merry fucking Christmas,
56.70
How is everyone doing? Good i hope. Sigh... It's Christmas and i'm sick and sad... sort of. This shit happens every year, for real. But the only time it's been this bad was about 3 years back and back then i made a stupid move. I bottled it all up, held it in and let it eat my sanity... well no i'm still sane. I won't make that move again hence the post. Again, jealousy is a bitch.
I'm reading this conversation between my friend and this guy she knows, he doesn't wanna ever see her again because he knows he can't get with her. He's saying he loved her before, but how can you love someone if you don't get any back? What the fuck is that? That's just obsession dude. And again i'm stuck on this topic. I think it exists now though, it's just people like me can't understand it yet, we're still too young. Wow i know alot of people who would counter that, i'd only listen to about 1 though. Oh and by the way i'm no longer going to be The King of Random, i'm going to be 56.70 to highlight how pathetic i am =_=
I'm not sure why it is that i do this but when i'm sad or pissed off, i just don't talk. Its scary =O but it happens. And i make up excuses when people ask whether i'm okay. Pretty fucking sweet method i reckon. But there is some part of me that wants to scream at the person "FUCK YOU CUNT !!!" Ah well, that's just how i deal with these sort of things i guess. How do you? Looks like this is gonna be a hell of a short post.
Have a merry fucking Christmas,
56.70
Monday, December 15, 2008
Age is a whore that i'd like to shoot in the face.
Okay,
This post is gonna offend alot of people mainly because of one topic i'm gonna talk about but we'll get to that. I'm currently in Shanghai and i've been here for about a week but fuck it's actually pretty boring... hhmmm actually no now that i come to think of it it's been pretty sweet. Even for the one week i've been here. Speaking of Shanghai, i wanted to tell y'all about Asian parents. And i guess Chinese parents in particular... Chinese parents are sometimes extremely.... stupid. And i really do mean that. There's alot of shit that goes down in China which involves a top stupid getting a shit mark, the parents bitching about how worthless he/she is because they got a shit mark, the student then committing suicide and then----------------------------
Alrighty sorry about the sudden change but i'm at a crossroads again. Right now as i'm writing this... it's another effing test of whether i'm an asshole or not and i think i'm gonna be the asshole this time.
...sigh,
The King of Random
I'll continue the rant next time.
This post is gonna offend alot of people mainly because of one topic i'm gonna talk about but we'll get to that. I'm currently in Shanghai and i've been here for about a week but fuck it's actually pretty boring... hhmmm actually no now that i come to think of it it's been pretty sweet. Even for the one week i've been here. Speaking of Shanghai, i wanted to tell y'all about Asian parents. And i guess Chinese parents in particular... Chinese parents are sometimes extremely.... stupid. And i really do mean that. There's alot of shit that goes down in China which involves a top stupid getting a shit mark, the parents bitching about how worthless he/she is because they got a shit mark, the student then committing suicide and then----------------------------
Alrighty sorry about the sudden change but i'm at a crossroads again. Right now as i'm writing this... it's another effing test of whether i'm an asshole or not and i think i'm gonna be the asshole this time.
...sigh,
The King of Random
I'll continue the rant next time.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
*Insert Bullshit Here*
Hello,
Wow, very plain and simple greeting. I had my formal this week and i realized i tend to do this thing which i'm not sure others do. I smile, but then suddenly it just turns into a dirty look really fast. Not dirty as in perverted but like pissed off sort of and i dunno but does that ever happen with you? It's hard to explain really, but my smile just turns into a frown extremely quickly :S And also when your out with people are you supposed to always smile? Or just look whatever. I think its a bad habit though 'cause like imagine it: Someone your out with smiles for about a second and then suddenly it turns into a frown, well not a frown but the no expression expression. And not only that but it changes in like a second O_O.
Also at the formal we were supposed to 'party' and i think its because i don't go out enough but i don't get how people dance. I mean at like clubs and shit and for some reason its really... degrading. Maybe its because i dance and through my dance i've been taught by my mentor not to mingle with other forms but yeah. So basically it means clubbing would be boring as fuck as me. Sigh... i don't think i'm explaining it very clearly. You know how people do lame ass dance moves like the 'dice throw' and the 'lawn-mower'? Imagine, a gigantic room full of people doing that. Exactly. Now you want to kill yourself as well don't you? If you STILL don't get what i mean i have an example:
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=H5vi_nvAVvA
Like that, only, with techno and hip pop.
This is gonna dissapoint some, because this post was extremely short, even more so than the last. Anyways, back to the post. Have you ever... hhmmm how should i put this... told someone not to go to an event? But in an indirect way? 'Cause i hate it when it happens, so frigging anti-climatic. I'd rather just have the person say "Fuck off, we don't want you coming" instead of "Awww you can't go 'cause like *insert bullshit here*" yeah. And like most of the time i don't know about the happening with the people i hanged around and when i find out i can't be fucked asking because asking to get invited is degrading and Di Wang-like.
Oh yeah, i'm battling tommorow. Wish me luck.
Questions of the week:
1.) Do you understand what i mean when i talk about changing your expression? If so, tell me if you ever notice yourself... 'unsmiling' too quickly.
2.) Does dancing like a retard on ecstacy-- wait no that's just shuffling. Does dancing like a tool degrade you and make you feel weird and unloved? Do you do it often? Do you laugh at people who do it? Are you a virgin? No, you don't have to answer the last one.
3.) Have you ever told someone to get fucked indirectly? And do you like asking to go to get togethers or events or whatever?
Cheers,
The King of Random.
Shanghai next sunday.
Wow, very plain and simple greeting. I had my formal this week and i realized i tend to do this thing which i'm not sure others do. I smile, but then suddenly it just turns into a dirty look really fast. Not dirty as in perverted but like pissed off sort of and i dunno but does that ever happen with you? It's hard to explain really, but my smile just turns into a frown extremely quickly :S And also when your out with people are you supposed to always smile? Or just look whatever. I think its a bad habit though 'cause like imagine it: Someone your out with smiles for about a second and then suddenly it turns into a frown, well not a frown but the no expression expression. And not only that but it changes in like a second O_O.
Also at the formal we were supposed to 'party' and i think its because i don't go out enough but i don't get how people dance. I mean at like clubs and shit and for some reason its really... degrading. Maybe its because i dance and through my dance i've been taught by my mentor not to mingle with other forms but yeah. So basically it means clubbing would be boring as fuck as me. Sigh... i don't think i'm explaining it very clearly. You know how people do lame ass dance moves like the 'dice throw' and the 'lawn-mower'? Imagine, a gigantic room full of people doing that. Exactly. Now you want to kill yourself as well don't you? If you STILL don't get what i mean i have an example:
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=H5vi_nvAVvA
Like that, only, with techno and hip pop.
This is gonna dissapoint some, because this post was extremely short, even more so than the last. Anyways, back to the post. Have you ever... hhmmm how should i put this... told someone not to go to an event? But in an indirect way? 'Cause i hate it when it happens, so frigging anti-climatic. I'd rather just have the person say "Fuck off, we don't want you coming" instead of "Awww you can't go 'cause like *insert bullshit here*" yeah. And like most of the time i don't know about the happening with the people i hanged around and when i find out i can't be fucked asking because asking to get invited is degrading and Di Wang-like.
Oh yeah, i'm battling tommorow. Wish me luck.
Questions of the week:
1.) Do you understand what i mean when i talk about changing your expression? If so, tell me if you ever notice yourself... 'unsmiling' too quickly.
2.) Does dancing like a retard on ecstacy-- wait no that's just shuffling. Does dancing like a tool degrade you and make you feel weird and unloved? Do you do it often? Do you laugh at people who do it? Are you a virgin? No, you don't have to answer the last one.
3.) Have you ever told someone to get fucked indirectly? And do you like asking to go to get togethers or events or whatever?
Cheers,
The King of Random.
Shanghai next sunday.
Monday, November 24, 2008
STREEEEET FFFIIIGGGGHHHHHTTTTTEEEERRRR FFFOOOUUURRR
Hi,
Yes. I have a new addiction. It's name is Street Fighter 4 and i find myself often travelling all the way to the city just to play it. So this is going to be a pretty long blog and i couldn't really think up a good title so yeah whatever.
Family. Such a strange concept. What constitutes as family? For some odd reason, people think blood binds others together. If you have a brother you need to love him and treat him with respect yet ironically it is much the opposite in my case. Have you ever considered others family? I mean people who you aren't related to by blood. And i mean even with adopted children and in laws and shit, they're supposed to be family yet whenever i see them on TV or in real life i get the feeling they don't exactly feel completely welcome and it's sort of bullshit. Likewise, blood family is bullshit in my opinion. I do consider some more than just friends, maybe close to family i can't be sure yet. And now onto the next random topic.
So i was watching the movie Carlito's Way this week and it had this scene which alot of movies tend to do. For some strange unknown reason, Whenever someone is dying it seems to be incredibly incredibly hard for them to speak. And it got me thinking why this is so... Is it because it hurts or... is it because they can't breathe? If it hurts it must hurt alot and you must have alot of fucking willpower to be able to talk. I think i wouldn't do it though because think about it. Your gonna speak but your not gonna be able to say everything you want. And it could end up really bad like that one South Park episode where Stan tries to win Wendy back by getting Jimmy the handicapped stutterring kid to tell her she's a continuous inspiration for him. He goes up to her and ends up saying "Wendy, Stan says your a cun---, CUNT, CUNT, Stan says your a CUNTinuous inspiration for him" and so the message is distorted.
Carlito's Way is a movie about GANGSTAS and drugs and crime and all that and likewise it seems that in their world everyone needs to prove themselves. Sometimes we do strange stupid shit just to try and prove ourselves and i guess what i'm doing to Shanghai is one of them. I know i could have done this in so many other ways, but i didn't. Instead i chose this and like you said its too late to reverse the effects. Not that i want to of course. And there the pride goes again. It really will be my downfall one day.
Sometimes i wish people would say to me, no i can't be fucked saying it it's too embrassing =O
Is it just me or are Indians (Vhadus, curries, panjabis, etc etc) becoming the new blacks? What i mean by that is are Indians being treated the way people used to treat black people in America? Because i've noticed that... not alot of people like Indians. Especially those who don't integrate into the Aussie (White) culture and stick to their own culture. I think it's because they do what i like to call.... a Eugene. They don't take a hint. They smell like crap (I WILL NEVER KNOW WHY, SERIOUSLY.), play ridiculous music through their phones, dress like fags, the list goes on and on. But yeah... i think they are getting mad hated on but on a more social level. Like take Asians for example, Today Tonight and other current affairs shows bag the crap out of them. I even remember seeing this one ad for an A Current Affairs story which literally i kid you not stated on the ad "ASIANS VERSUS AUSSIES" and it was a split screen with asians on one side and whiteys on the other.
I was on the train today and wow i just remembered i saw my bboy mentor's girlfriend on the train and then saw him at Epping station. Weird huh? Anyways, i was on the train and i met Eunice (Mentor's girlfriend) and she was with a friend from college. So we got off at Strathfield since we all had to change lines anyways and her train comes and she says her byes to us. I'm left standing there with her friend and there is just this awkward silence. And i realize at that moment that this isn't the first instance of this happening.
Ok, so my questions of the week are:
1.) Do you think a friend or someone you know can ever be family? Anyone who is not blood related?
2.) If you got shot and were dying would you talk or would you just pass away silently? Why would you talk if you did?
3.) Do you agree that Indians are becoming the new blacks? Or perhaps is it another ethnicity?
4.) What do you do during these moments of awkwardness? Do you make talk with your friend's friend or do you just shut the fuck up and walk in the other direction as i did?
Thanks for your time guys.
PEACE OUT NIGGUHZ,
The King of Random
P.S. SHANGHAI IN 2 WEEKS !!! FUCKING GAY !!!
Yes. I have a new addiction. It's name is Street Fighter 4 and i find myself often travelling all the way to the city just to play it. So this is going to be a pretty long blog and i couldn't really think up a good title so yeah whatever.
Family. Such a strange concept. What constitutes as family? For some odd reason, people think blood binds others together. If you have a brother you need to love him and treat him with respect yet ironically it is much the opposite in my case. Have you ever considered others family? I mean people who you aren't related to by blood. And i mean even with adopted children and in laws and shit, they're supposed to be family yet whenever i see them on TV or in real life i get the feeling they don't exactly feel completely welcome and it's sort of bullshit. Likewise, blood family is bullshit in my opinion. I do consider some more than just friends, maybe close to family i can't be sure yet. And now onto the next random topic.
So i was watching the movie Carlito's Way this week and it had this scene which alot of movies tend to do. For some strange unknown reason, Whenever someone is dying it seems to be incredibly incredibly hard for them to speak. And it got me thinking why this is so... Is it because it hurts or... is it because they can't breathe? If it hurts it must hurt alot and you must have alot of fucking willpower to be able to talk. I think i wouldn't do it though because think about it. Your gonna speak but your not gonna be able to say everything you want. And it could end up really bad like that one South Park episode where Stan tries to win Wendy back by getting Jimmy the handicapped stutterring kid to tell her she's a continuous inspiration for him. He goes up to her and ends up saying "Wendy, Stan says your a cun---, CUNT, CUNT, Stan says your a CUNTinuous inspiration for him" and so the message is distorted.
Carlito's Way is a movie about GANGSTAS and drugs and crime and all that and likewise it seems that in their world everyone needs to prove themselves. Sometimes we do strange stupid shit just to try and prove ourselves and i guess what i'm doing to Shanghai is one of them. I know i could have done this in so many other ways, but i didn't. Instead i chose this and like you said its too late to reverse the effects. Not that i want to of course. And there the pride goes again. It really will be my downfall one day.
Sometimes i wish people would say to me, no i can't be fucked saying it it's too embrassing =O
Is it just me or are Indians (Vhadus, curries, panjabis, etc etc) becoming the new blacks? What i mean by that is are Indians being treated the way people used to treat black people in America? Because i've noticed that... not alot of people like Indians. Especially those who don't integrate into the Aussie (White) culture and stick to their own culture. I think it's because they do what i like to call.... a Eugene. They don't take a hint. They smell like crap (I WILL NEVER KNOW WHY, SERIOUSLY.), play ridiculous music through their phones, dress like fags, the list goes on and on. But yeah... i think they are getting mad hated on but on a more social level. Like take Asians for example, Today Tonight and other current affairs shows bag the crap out of them. I even remember seeing this one ad for an A Current Affairs story which literally i kid you not stated on the ad "ASIANS VERSUS AUSSIES" and it was a split screen with asians on one side and whiteys on the other.
I was on the train today and wow i just remembered i saw my bboy mentor's girlfriend on the train and then saw him at Epping station. Weird huh? Anyways, i was on the train and i met Eunice (Mentor's girlfriend) and she was with a friend from college. So we got off at Strathfield since we all had to change lines anyways and her train comes and she says her byes to us. I'm left standing there with her friend and there is just this awkward silence. And i realize at that moment that this isn't the first instance of this happening.
Ok, so my questions of the week are:
1.) Do you think a friend or someone you know can ever be family? Anyone who is not blood related?
2.) If you got shot and were dying would you talk or would you just pass away silently? Why would you talk if you did?
3.) Do you agree that Indians are becoming the new blacks? Or perhaps is it another ethnicity?
4.) What do you do during these moments of awkwardness? Do you make talk with your friend's friend or do you just shut the fuck up and walk in the other direction as i did?
Thanks for your time guys.
PEACE OUT NIGGUHZ,
The King of Random
P.S. SHANGHAI IN 2 WEEKS !!! FUCKING GAY !!!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Strangers, bogans and Asian parents... well, sort of.
Hey,
I think that these posts are becoming pretty inconsistent. Before it was once a week i would do a really long post but lately i've been lazy and i haven't put in the effort or the time. Sorry guys. I couldn't think of much to rant about this night but i have nothing to do so whatever.
I... have this strange habit. I like to go to this place called King's cross, find a hooker and then murder and butcher her. Nah jokes. Or maybe not :O. But i do have a strange habit, well one among many. But for some odd reason i like to believe that strangers are wise people and i think its because i've gotten that vibe from a few people i've talked to. And, this is gonna sound retarded, Hooters is like the central place. Well no not really its just that once i was talking to one of the waitresses and she told me i would find God. But i think it was the way she put it in that i was... fascinated by. It also didn't really make any sense because she turned Christian because of a Jew. And here it is with the argument again. I don't know if you believe this but, Muslims, Jews and Christians all worship the same God. There, i said it. Anyways the reason i'm bringing this up is because i met a girl today. She looked like Luky and i already told some of you about her. She wasn't wise or anything but talking to strangers is just so fun for some reason. Maybe its because they don't know anything about you or maybe its because of the potential you can see.
About that girl... i feel sorry for her. She's really good at music but i think she's being full pressured by her parents. I don't know if you know this, but in Australia, there is like this stereotype of Asian (Mainly Chinese) parents. That is, you get really good grades, you spend your weekends going to tutor and Chinese school and you HAVE to do piano for some reason that only God knows. I think her parents push her to the max and i think that it's gonna affect her when she's older. Cause like, think about it. You can only have fun when your a kid well yes you can when your older but when your a kid your SUPPOSED to have fun. My main argument for those who give me shit about my bboying destroying my hsc is that you can only bboy when your young. When your old, you can still apply for uni as a mature age student and shit so what's the big fucking deal? And she's pretty too. What a waste. Hopefully she doesn't go party mode during uni like the stories Sue has told me about or she doesn't become a Michael Jackson. No. That would just be scary.
And here is my random rant. Do you ever bump into those people? You know, those cunts who seem to be fucked in the head and for some reason have to play music through their phone? Yes, that's right, BOGANS. Well they are just the first kind. There are two types you see, bogans and vhadus (Curries). For some odd fucked up reason, they are not aware of the existance of the technology known as earphones and they have to project their shitty music through their phone speakers and we have to endure this torture. Bogans usually play 'rap' such as Tupac and Bone Thugs n Harmony even though i highly doubt they understand Tupac's work. Vhadus on the other hand are much much worse. They play vhadu music. This music is usually repetitive and the only ones who can tolerate this type of audio rape are vhadus and the insane. So my questions of the week are:
(a.) What is the strangest experience you have had when talking to a stranger and what did you guys talk about?
(b.) Who do you know who is as pressured as a Japanese school girl's virginity and what do you think they will end up like in the future?
(c.) What is the most annoying music you have heard through these bogans and vhadus who have to use their phones as speakers?
{EDIT} Write your answers in the comment box please.
Yours sincerely,
The King of Random.
I think that these posts are becoming pretty inconsistent. Before it was once a week i would do a really long post but lately i've been lazy and i haven't put in the effort or the time. Sorry guys. I couldn't think of much to rant about this night but i have nothing to do so whatever.
I... have this strange habit. I like to go to this place called King's cross, find a hooker and then murder and butcher her. Nah jokes. Or maybe not :O. But i do have a strange habit, well one among many. But for some odd reason i like to believe that strangers are wise people and i think its because i've gotten that vibe from a few people i've talked to. And, this is gonna sound retarded, Hooters is like the central place. Well no not really its just that once i was talking to one of the waitresses and she told me i would find God. But i think it was the way she put it in that i was... fascinated by. It also didn't really make any sense because she turned Christian because of a Jew. And here it is with the argument again. I don't know if you believe this but, Muslims, Jews and Christians all worship the same God. There, i said it. Anyways the reason i'm bringing this up is because i met a girl today. She looked like Luky and i already told some of you about her. She wasn't wise or anything but talking to strangers is just so fun for some reason. Maybe its because they don't know anything about you or maybe its because of the potential you can see.
About that girl... i feel sorry for her. She's really good at music but i think she's being full pressured by her parents. I don't know if you know this, but in Australia, there is like this stereotype of Asian (Mainly Chinese) parents. That is, you get really good grades, you spend your weekends going to tutor and Chinese school and you HAVE to do piano for some reason that only God knows. I think her parents push her to the max and i think that it's gonna affect her when she's older. Cause like, think about it. You can only have fun when your a kid well yes you can when your older but when your a kid your SUPPOSED to have fun. My main argument for those who give me shit about my bboying destroying my hsc is that you can only bboy when your young. When your old, you can still apply for uni as a mature age student and shit so what's the big fucking deal? And she's pretty too. What a waste. Hopefully she doesn't go party mode during uni like the stories Sue has told me about or she doesn't become a Michael Jackson. No. That would just be scary.
And here is my random rant. Do you ever bump into those people? You know, those cunts who seem to be fucked in the head and for some reason have to play music through their phone? Yes, that's right, BOGANS. Well they are just the first kind. There are two types you see, bogans and vhadus (Curries). For some odd fucked up reason, they are not aware of the existance of the technology known as earphones and they have to project their shitty music through their phone speakers and we have to endure this torture. Bogans usually play 'rap' such as Tupac and Bone Thugs n Harmony even though i highly doubt they understand Tupac's work. Vhadus on the other hand are much much worse. They play vhadu music. This music is usually repetitive and the only ones who can tolerate this type of audio rape are vhadus and the insane. So my questions of the week are:
(a.) What is the strangest experience you have had when talking to a stranger and what did you guys talk about?
(b.) Who do you know who is as pressured as a Japanese school girl's virginity and what do you think they will end up like in the future?
(c.) What is the most annoying music you have heard through these bogans and vhadus who have to use their phones as speakers?
{EDIT} Write your answers in the comment box please.
Yours sincerely,
The King of Random.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Dissapointment and expectations.
Hi,
Dissapointment. That is what i am going to prove to everyone in Shanghai. Well except a few, but i will show them how dissapointing i am and how much of a prick i am. It sounds stupid but for me it is the only way to reverse the roles of Shanghai and Sydney. Some of it isnt for this reason though. Part of it is because i was dissapointed by alot of people even though they didn't owe me anything which is rather... pathetic. I don't think this trip will be very good to be honest because i've already cut myself from everyone i was planning on meeting. It's so weird because i expected that this trip would be like IT, it would be the trip that i would remember for the rest of my life but i guess this really was unexpected. Sigh, the future really is unpredictable i suppose.
Have you ever done that? Expected too much from someone. I tend to do it alot yet i don't do it enough. I say this because towards some people i don't give a fuck what they do but towards others i expect sssooo much from them. And when i don't get what i want, well, like a child i begin to get frustrated and when i begin to get frustrated i begin to rage and when i rage it turns into hate. Unfortunate i suppose, but that is just the way things are. The fact that i put in so much heart and soul still annoys me because i could have been doing better things but i didn't. Argh fuck.
I'm not looking very forward to Shanghai anymore, only a few things i guess. And fuck is it raining? Shit i hope not i gotta bboy soon. I'm just gonna train with Danny and focus on bboying i guess. Maybe see Lucia and Luky a few times and Ice when she arrives. I don't really know how to explain things to Ice cause i'm sure she's gonna be pissed off and confused when she finds out. I could always lie to her but i don't think i really want to do that... I guess i'll tell her and hopefully she can figure things out for me >_< Like you said, it's pretty sad. Pushing everyone away i mean. But dude, it was pretty funny when i pissed off Jae Hyun i mean cmon. You gotta admit =P
Peace,
The King of Random
Dissapointment. That is what i am going to prove to everyone in Shanghai. Well except a few, but i will show them how dissapointing i am and how much of a prick i am. It sounds stupid but for me it is the only way to reverse the roles of Shanghai and Sydney. Some of it isnt for this reason though. Part of it is because i was dissapointed by alot of people even though they didn't owe me anything which is rather... pathetic. I don't think this trip will be very good to be honest because i've already cut myself from everyone i was planning on meeting. It's so weird because i expected that this trip would be like IT, it would be the trip that i would remember for the rest of my life but i guess this really was unexpected. Sigh, the future really is unpredictable i suppose.
Have you ever done that? Expected too much from someone. I tend to do it alot yet i don't do it enough. I say this because towards some people i don't give a fuck what they do but towards others i expect sssooo much from them. And when i don't get what i want, well, like a child i begin to get frustrated and when i begin to get frustrated i begin to rage and when i rage it turns into hate. Unfortunate i suppose, but that is just the way things are. The fact that i put in so much heart and soul still annoys me because i could have been doing better things but i didn't. Argh fuck.
I'm not looking very forward to Shanghai anymore, only a few things i guess. And fuck is it raining? Shit i hope not i gotta bboy soon. I'm just gonna train with Danny and focus on bboying i guess. Maybe see Lucia and Luky a few times and Ice when she arrives. I don't really know how to explain things to Ice cause i'm sure she's gonna be pissed off and confused when she finds out. I could always lie to her but i don't think i really want to do that... I guess i'll tell her and hopefully she can figure things out for me >_< Like you said, it's pretty sad. Pushing everyone away i mean. But dude, it was pretty funny when i pissed off Jae Hyun i mean cmon. You gotta admit =P
Peace,
The King of Random
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Life.
Hello~~
So yesterday i met up with Sue and we had dinner together. The last time we saw each other things were a bit rushed so this time it was pretty sweet. We had thai first nd we had Max Brenner afterwards, it was pretty funny because at Max Brenner we saw what i call a 'visa stealer'. Me and her were analyzing them it was pretty funny she was saying how the old white dude was her sugar daddy. But i noticed something about her. Well i notice alot of things about her but this was pretty significant. She lives life happily, she has fun and goes out. She is the complete opposite of my brother and i love her for that =]... Sigh i wouldn't mind living like her, it's so... peaceful? Of course shit still goes on in her life but she deals with it well.
I bet that if my brother was to find out, he would say some stupid shit to slander her (e.g. omfg shes a nurse blah blah blah *crap comes out of brothers mouth*) but damn dude, you aint much better. Take a look at yourself asshole, you pushed all your friends away, you never go out EVER, you can't handle the smallest of situations, God i could go on all night about his problems. But it's his ignorance that really pisses me off because i know that i have tried to help him, tried to help him live life but he's rejected it and now i honestly can't give a fuck. I don't know, i just can't get over his ignorance in talking shit. But it's all good cause i don't ever plan on seeing him again, ever.
Sigh well all i gotta do now is follow in her footsteps. Go to uni, get a job, settle down and enjoy the little things in life. I don't know about Shanghai anymore, i have to face someone who i don't want to see. I don't know how i'm going to handle it either because i know for sure we're gonna have to chill but i don't really want to. Ah well, time shall solve all problems as i always say.
Peace out,
The King of Random
So yesterday i met up with Sue and we had dinner together. The last time we saw each other things were a bit rushed so this time it was pretty sweet. We had thai first nd we had Max Brenner afterwards, it was pretty funny because at Max Brenner we saw what i call a 'visa stealer'. Me and her were analyzing them it was pretty funny she was saying how the old white dude was her sugar daddy. But i noticed something about her. Well i notice alot of things about her but this was pretty significant. She lives life happily, she has fun and goes out. She is the complete opposite of my brother and i love her for that =]... Sigh i wouldn't mind living like her, it's so... peaceful? Of course shit still goes on in her life but she deals with it well.
I bet that if my brother was to find out, he would say some stupid shit to slander her (e.g. omfg shes a nurse blah blah blah *crap comes out of brothers mouth*) but damn dude, you aint much better. Take a look at yourself asshole, you pushed all your friends away, you never go out EVER, you can't handle the smallest of situations, God i could go on all night about his problems. But it's his ignorance that really pisses me off because i know that i have tried to help him, tried to help him live life but he's rejected it and now i honestly can't give a fuck. I don't know, i just can't get over his ignorance in talking shit. But it's all good cause i don't ever plan on seeing him again, ever.
Sigh well all i gotta do now is follow in her footsteps. Go to uni, get a job, settle down and enjoy the little things in life. I don't know about Shanghai anymore, i have to face someone who i don't want to see. I don't know how i'm going to handle it either because i know for sure we're gonna have to chill but i don't really want to. Ah well, time shall solve all problems as i always say.
Peace out,
The King of Random
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I'm back.
Wow it feels.... weird...,
I finished the HSC. My high school life is over. I always wondered what it would be like since i was a kid, i never was really able to grasp any idea of it though. I do remember one thing really clearly, what would happen with her when i was this old. I'm becoming obsessed as one of you describes it, i'm becoming very obsessed with her. BUT i have a back up plan, hopefully i can get with this girl called Lucia and she'll just move Tutu out of my head. Sure she'll still be there i'll just not be obsessed thats all.
You know that thing you do when like your looking at someone and then they look at you and you just turn ur head? Lol i love it when something like that happens because i just continue staring. I know it's rude and stuff but you know me, i like to... awkward it up =). Sometimes i don't like to make things awkward however and this is when i try to pretend that i don't know people. I'm sure you have done it at one stage or another but this happened to me on Saturday and the two people were standing RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and i just kept walking. Don't make eye contact, that is the key my young padawans. I don't know why i do it usually its cause i don't like them but sometimes i jus't ignore them anyways. Other times however, when i know they're ignoring me i'll be like ".... HHIIII !!!" yeah i did it to mr. PURE MUSCLLEEE.
Crying. I wonder why humans do it. Apparently, it relieves stress but laughter also relieves stress. Lol at the irony in how laughter and crying are actually very much alike. I know that there's some mental thing to it but why do you cry when someone dies for example? Your sad, yes, we know that but why do you cry? If crying and laughing were the same thing why not laugh? Okay, that would be fucked up. Anyways. Hopefully the comment box works, if it does please write the last time you cried. It doesnt have to be ridiculously specific but it can't be like "Awhile ago" it has to be at least "a few weeks ago" or some time period like that.
Wow, short blog,
The King of Random
I finished the HSC. My high school life is over. I always wondered what it would be like since i was a kid, i never was really able to grasp any idea of it though. I do remember one thing really clearly, what would happen with her when i was this old. I'm becoming obsessed as one of you describes it, i'm becoming very obsessed with her. BUT i have a back up plan, hopefully i can get with this girl called Lucia and she'll just move Tutu out of my head. Sure she'll still be there i'll just not be obsessed thats all.
You know that thing you do when like your looking at someone and then they look at you and you just turn ur head? Lol i love it when something like that happens because i just continue staring. I know it's rude and stuff but you know me, i like to... awkward it up =). Sometimes i don't like to make things awkward however and this is when i try to pretend that i don't know people. I'm sure you have done it at one stage or another but this happened to me on Saturday and the two people were standing RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and i just kept walking. Don't make eye contact, that is the key my young padawans. I don't know why i do it usually its cause i don't like them but sometimes i jus't ignore them anyways. Other times however, when i know they're ignoring me i'll be like ".... HHIIII !!!" yeah i did it to mr. PURE MUSCLLEEE.
Crying. I wonder why humans do it. Apparently, it relieves stress but laughter also relieves stress. Lol at the irony in how laughter and crying are actually very much alike. I know that there's some mental thing to it but why do you cry when someone dies for example? Your sad, yes, we know that but why do you cry? If crying and laughing were the same thing why not laugh? Okay, that would be fucked up. Anyways. Hopefully the comment box works, if it does please write the last time you cried. It doesnt have to be ridiculously specific but it can't be like "Awhile ago" it has to be at least "a few weeks ago" or some time period like that.
Wow, short blog,
The King of Random
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Control.
I don't know whats happening to me. It seems like everything in my world is changing, and with it my control. The once strong links i had have become tenuous. I've become weak and a foreigner to this world, the confusion grasps me in an unwilling way and causes me to do things out of impulse rather than logic. I try to establish control but it isn't working, the roles have changed. What was once my hometown has now become a foreign field, someone who was once considered a brother has become a stranger, it seems there is alot on my mind. And right before the HSC. I can't answer anymore questions people ask me, because i don't know the answers to them. I don't know what i want anymore, and i'm hurting others unintentionally yet i don't even know if i'm sorry or not. Change is fucked up.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Many, many things.
6 days till the end,
So a week ago a friend of mine told me that my posts were too short so in honour of her, this post will be really really long and really really random. This post will be strange for many, because there will be no definite mood. But let me give you a brief explanation of some of the shit i'm gonna be covering (Some i may have already covered): Secrets, the rush of doing illegal shit, buying condoms, feminine odour. Yes. RANDOM.
Since buying condoms sort of sounded funny i thought i'd start with that one. So the other day i'm buying condoms for a friend, and i wanted to do it cause i like to make people laugh. So i'm at the store i'm near the register and i get it and say some weird shit to the shop assistant. But this wasn't the first time i did it and there was this one time i had to get shit for a friend and like... i was walking to the register and the worst thing happens... i see a family friend. At first i was shitting bricks thinking "WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO !?" and my family friend says Hi Edward, so i respond and i think, i THINK she saw what was in my hand and must have thought it MIGHT have been a pack of condoms because they were only a 6 pack so its pretty small. So i respond with hi and thats that. But there was this unexplainable awkwardness if you get what i mean and because they know my parents i couldn't really crack a joke. Sigh... i was really unlucky that time. So my question is to you: Have you ever bought condoms and if so, what is the strangest shit that has happened when you bought them?
Since i'm in the mood of comical humour and whatnot, i'd like to tell you about something i do which everyone whom i do it to finds weird about me. SNIFFING HAIR !!! Women's hair that is. I don't know why this is, maybe i have a fucked up nose, but chicks have this smell. It's nice and at first i thought it was cause they all put on perfume and deoderant but apparently not cause i ask them and they first look at me like they want to slap me and then say with this confused look on their face "....no". But hair seems to be where the central smell comes from for some reason, well there is ONE other place on a woman's body where her scent is strong.. if uuhh... you know... you get my drift ;)
Big talk. I do it alot, i try to think i don't but i'm pretty sure if you asked the people around me, they would say i do. I don't know why people do it and the big talk i'm referring to would be for example if someone got into a fight and lost and then some other douchebag would say something along these lines "WELL FIRST, I'D HAVE MY GUARD UP AND THEN I'D HOOK HIM FROM THE LEFT AND DO A TORNADO KICK" No you fag, you don't have time to think. But that's a classic example. Let's look at a situation i recently heard about. So this guy who hates this girl ALOT was saying how he would laugh if she committed suicide because she "deserves it". Now i know this girl and she's a pretty cool person and she's also the person who requested this blog, and she hasn't really done anything... Anyways, what i'm trying to say is that if the same were to happen to one of his friends, he wouldn't laugh and i'd probably shit talk and say "Wow, i guess i should be laughing now right?" you see, it's cyclical.
Dreams dreams dreams. I seem to be obsessed with them. I'm always asking people about their dreams but lately, i haven't been having any good dreams. They make me recollect on times i don't want to think about. Do you dream everynight? Someone once told me he only dreamed once a week and i told him he was fucked up. Do you agree? She(the one who's requesting a longer blog) said that they reflect our most inner thoughts, and because of this it has lead me to believe that people deny us their dreams because they have secrets to hide, doesn't everyone?
Why do we keep secrets? What is the purpose of them. Most of the time you don't want someone to know something about you because your scared they will attack you because of it, or that you'll hurt them because they know something about you that they did not want to know. Ignorance is bliss. I believe in that sentence 1000%. I wouldn't mind that life, but because i know about the world and the sick creatures that dwell in it i am unable to comprehend a life like that. The simplest truth could destroy your life. I have a secret, well it's not really a secret, it's just not emphasised enough.
As all of you know, i have a bad relationship with my brother. I can say with full confidence that i am foreign to a sibling relationship. For example, Benji, you and your brother are tight and shit right? If he has a problem, he can talk to you about it without worrying too much. You'd back him in a fight right? You'd feed him if he was so sick he wasn't able to do anything on his own right? These are rhetorical questions, i already know the answers to them. For me, it's all the opposite. I can't talk to my brother about anything and i'm sure as hell he wouldn't jump in if i got into a brawl. Spiritually, i barely know him and he barely knows me. And that's the way i'd like it to be. Only God knows how many chances i've given him. Everytime he's fucked me over. And i'm not gonna ask someone for help or some shit like that, i'm gonna do the smart thing and just ignore him for the rest of my life. Sigh, i'm getting a bit pissed off now.
But that's cool, you wanted a long post and this has been bothering me all week. I'm not sure if it's my own doing or what happened in the past but everytime my brother is brought up in family conversation, i always just rage. Especially at my Mum, because SHE was the one who said she didn't want to ever talk to him again or to ever have him at our house. And now she's calling him and telling him to come over and shit? What the fuck? And when i ask her about it she says how it was "the heat of the moment". I don't know if she gets it or not, BUT IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK LIKE THAT. I don't know how true i stay to my words, but if they're passionate and there's feeling behind it, i do mean it. I try to stick to it. None of this heat of the moment bullshit. Like today, she was saying how he brought a cd to our house but he was too scared to come in or some shit, and then i was saying how she said she didn't want him in our house anymore and she's now saying how he doesn't want to be in our house, not the other way around. I instantly snapped and it fucked my whole day up. But that's how it is i guess. My emotions are a product of her actions. And imma stick by it.
You know what i'm really scared of though? If Sue gets involved. Because i know that if i tell her about it she WILL try to help. But i don't want your help, because what's been done has been done. Like the end of Father and Child by Gwen Harwood "No words, no tears can mend" this. There is no solution. But i'm scared because i know if she helps, i will hate her. Anyone who tries to help me on this situation i end up hating. I know she's trying to help, but the blindness caused by my anger against my brother decimates my logic. I'm tempted to just smash my door down and start screaming at my Mum for her idiocracy and arrogance, but fuck it. This blog prevents me from doing that. It's my escape i guess.
Sigh... i think that's why i've been stressed all week and shit. I've been getting into arguments left, right and center. But i dunno what to say. Oh well, we'll just let time play this out i guess. Not much i can do. I'm sorry for being such an asshole this week guys. But i don't want you to forgive me, because if i can't beat my brother then i am an asshole =.= HSC is in a week so i won't be posting for awhile i think... I just hope i do well and get AT LEAST 80. Or i'm gonna be departed to.... Tibet. Nah jokes. This post has been strange... i guess you could say... it's been a journey (O_o... Oh GOD =_=)
Peace out and goodluck to everyone doing the HSC,
The King of Random
So a week ago a friend of mine told me that my posts were too short so in honour of her, this post will be really really long and really really random. This post will be strange for many, because there will be no definite mood. But let me give you a brief explanation of some of the shit i'm gonna be covering (Some i may have already covered): Secrets, the rush of doing illegal shit, buying condoms, feminine odour. Yes. RANDOM.
Since buying condoms sort of sounded funny i thought i'd start with that one. So the other day i'm buying condoms for a friend, and i wanted to do it cause i like to make people laugh. So i'm at the store i'm near the register and i get it and say some weird shit to the shop assistant. But this wasn't the first time i did it and there was this one time i had to get shit for a friend and like... i was walking to the register and the worst thing happens... i see a family friend. At first i was shitting bricks thinking "WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO !?" and my family friend says Hi Edward, so i respond and i think, i THINK she saw what was in my hand and must have thought it MIGHT have been a pack of condoms because they were only a 6 pack so its pretty small. So i respond with hi and thats that. But there was this unexplainable awkwardness if you get what i mean and because they know my parents i couldn't really crack a joke. Sigh... i was really unlucky that time. So my question is to you: Have you ever bought condoms and if so, what is the strangest shit that has happened when you bought them?
Since i'm in the mood of comical humour and whatnot, i'd like to tell you about something i do which everyone whom i do it to finds weird about me. SNIFFING HAIR !!! Women's hair that is. I don't know why this is, maybe i have a fucked up nose, but chicks have this smell. It's nice and at first i thought it was cause they all put on perfume and deoderant but apparently not cause i ask them and they first look at me like they want to slap me and then say with this confused look on their face "....no". But hair seems to be where the central smell comes from for some reason, well there is ONE other place on a woman's body where her scent is strong.. if uuhh... you know... you get my drift ;)
Big talk. I do it alot, i try to think i don't but i'm pretty sure if you asked the people around me, they would say i do. I don't know why people do it and the big talk i'm referring to would be for example if someone got into a fight and lost and then some other douchebag would say something along these lines "WELL FIRST, I'D HAVE MY GUARD UP AND THEN I'D HOOK HIM FROM THE LEFT AND DO A TORNADO KICK" No you fag, you don't have time to think. But that's a classic example. Let's look at a situation i recently heard about. So this guy who hates this girl ALOT was saying how he would laugh if she committed suicide because she "deserves it". Now i know this girl and she's a pretty cool person and she's also the person who requested this blog, and she hasn't really done anything... Anyways, what i'm trying to say is that if the same were to happen to one of his friends, he wouldn't laugh and i'd probably shit talk and say "Wow, i guess i should be laughing now right?" you see, it's cyclical.
Dreams dreams dreams. I seem to be obsessed with them. I'm always asking people about their dreams but lately, i haven't been having any good dreams. They make me recollect on times i don't want to think about. Do you dream everynight? Someone once told me he only dreamed once a week and i told him he was fucked up. Do you agree? She(the one who's requesting a longer blog) said that they reflect our most inner thoughts, and because of this it has lead me to believe that people deny us their dreams because they have secrets to hide, doesn't everyone?
Why do we keep secrets? What is the purpose of them. Most of the time you don't want someone to know something about you because your scared they will attack you because of it, or that you'll hurt them because they know something about you that they did not want to know. Ignorance is bliss. I believe in that sentence 1000%. I wouldn't mind that life, but because i know about the world and the sick creatures that dwell in it i am unable to comprehend a life like that. The simplest truth could destroy your life. I have a secret, well it's not really a secret, it's just not emphasised enough.
As all of you know, i have a bad relationship with my brother. I can say with full confidence that i am foreign to a sibling relationship. For example, Benji, you and your brother are tight and shit right? If he has a problem, he can talk to you about it without worrying too much. You'd back him in a fight right? You'd feed him if he was so sick he wasn't able to do anything on his own right? These are rhetorical questions, i already know the answers to them. For me, it's all the opposite. I can't talk to my brother about anything and i'm sure as hell he wouldn't jump in if i got into a brawl. Spiritually, i barely know him and he barely knows me. And that's the way i'd like it to be. Only God knows how many chances i've given him. Everytime he's fucked me over. And i'm not gonna ask someone for help or some shit like that, i'm gonna do the smart thing and just ignore him for the rest of my life. Sigh, i'm getting a bit pissed off now.
But that's cool, you wanted a long post and this has been bothering me all week. I'm not sure if it's my own doing or what happened in the past but everytime my brother is brought up in family conversation, i always just rage. Especially at my Mum, because SHE was the one who said she didn't want to ever talk to him again or to ever have him at our house. And now she's calling him and telling him to come over and shit? What the fuck? And when i ask her about it she says how it was "the heat of the moment". I don't know if she gets it or not, BUT IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK LIKE THAT. I don't know how true i stay to my words, but if they're passionate and there's feeling behind it, i do mean it. I try to stick to it. None of this heat of the moment bullshit. Like today, she was saying how he brought a cd to our house but he was too scared to come in or some shit, and then i was saying how she said she didn't want him in our house anymore and she's now saying how he doesn't want to be in our house, not the other way around. I instantly snapped and it fucked my whole day up. But that's how it is i guess. My emotions are a product of her actions. And imma stick by it.
You know what i'm really scared of though? If Sue gets involved. Because i know that if i tell her about it she WILL try to help. But i don't want your help, because what's been done has been done. Like the end of Father and Child by Gwen Harwood "No words, no tears can mend" this. There is no solution. But i'm scared because i know if she helps, i will hate her. Anyone who tries to help me on this situation i end up hating. I know she's trying to help, but the blindness caused by my anger against my brother decimates my logic. I'm tempted to just smash my door down and start screaming at my Mum for her idiocracy and arrogance, but fuck it. This blog prevents me from doing that. It's my escape i guess.
Sigh... i think that's why i've been stressed all week and shit. I've been getting into arguments left, right and center. But i dunno what to say. Oh well, we'll just let time play this out i guess. Not much i can do. I'm sorry for being such an asshole this week guys. But i don't want you to forgive me, because if i can't beat my brother then i am an asshole =.= HSC is in a week so i won't be posting for awhile i think... I just hope i do well and get AT LEAST 80. Or i'm gonna be departed to.... Tibet. Nah jokes. This post has been strange... i guess you could say... it's been a journey (O_o... Oh GOD =_=)
Peace out and goodluck to everyone doing the HSC,
The King of Random
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